Since my internet expertise does not include how to fix a “Database Error, Page Not Found”; I was forced to skip last weeks blog post while I spent hours chasing my tail and begging for help until my site was restored. Thankfully I was victorious and the last two weeks weren’t so bad either.

Princess Jellybean started going to her new preschool, and while I was still feeling  a little guilty/ sad that she could not remain at her previous school, I have come to grips with the fact that sometimes we just have to make difficult decisions. The guilt/ sad just comes from knowing I am not giving her the best tools to work with (her old school has an exceptional educational and self awareness/ body regulation model). While her new school may not have the very best tools, it  has very practical, strong, and useful ones; it is a joyful environment that is teaching great social skills and the Kindergarten prep does not fall short. She is so excited when she gets to go to school and equally happy when I  pick her up. She is anxious to share what she has learned and accomplished, and it is clear that she is growing up appropriately so it is clearly a win! We are moving forward.

Squidget’s school days have been going fairly smoothly. He is making it through the full day, and he has managed to get some assistance in the classroom (although I have yet to determine how long this will last). So far, I have not received one phone call nor have I been asked to attend any emergency meetings. I do however have close and constant communication with his teacher, his (temporary) aide, and his case manager so that we can continue to improve our methods. The downside of this equation is that Squidget comes home exhausted. It takes a LOT of physical and mental focus to “keep it together” all day and it is no doubt a constant struggle for him. Adding to that is the reality that his ADHD medications start to wear off in the mid afternoon. By 4pm Squidget is falling apart at the seams; some days are worse than others. It hasn’t been insurmountable, but I can’t deny that my physical and mental focus is challenged as well.

Fortunately we are learning new things every day. Between occupational therapy, his educational team, my own research, and ideas that have sprung from the great minds in my circle of family and friends – we are finding ways to mange with small measures of success. The size of the success is not important, the success itself is what matters. With more time to adjust to our new schedule, its is fairly likely that we will find little bits of nirvana in our evenings. For now, nirvana is holding steady on the weekends.  The biggest blessing for me is knowing that we are leaps an bounds ahead of where we were at this time last year. That was a dark and scary place and I am a girl who likes a lot of sunshine. Lucky for me I seem to have a number of breaks in the clouds.

“If everyone is moving forward together, then success takes care of itself. ” ~ Henry Ford

“March on. Do not tarry. To go forward is to move toward perfection. March on, and fear not the thorns, or the sharp stones on life’s path.”  ~Khalil Gibran